So, at least as far as my brief time in the light showed me, that is not how it goes. If I had the remnants of bad thoughts or deeds lingering in me, I would be sent to purgatory, sort of like a minimum-security jail where I could work off my guilt and earn my way to heaven.Īnd if my sins were just too serious for any cosmic work farm, I would be sent straight to you know where. If my slate was clean, and I was repentant and thus sinless, I would be sent to heaven's pearly gates. The menial and mortal sins on the chalkboard of my soul would be tallied, and, accordingly, I would be assigned to one of three places. But it turned out to be nothing like I expected, and everything I needed.įirst, I was taught that when we die, we go directly to some big judgment place. Euphrasia Elementary School in Granada Hills, the priests, brothers and nuns at Bishop Alemany High School in Mission Hills, and the Jesuits at Loyola Marymount University, I received very specific ideas about who God is and what heaven would be like. The 20 minutes or so that I spent in heaven forever changed me and my relationship with God.Ī cradle Catholic, I was educated by 16 years of Catholic school in Southern California. But I arrived at that place of acceptance not in the way you might think, and certainly not from being Catholic.Ī couple of years back, I shared my story in NCR about how on May 3, 1988, the day after son Nick was born, I died from an eclamptic seizure. While I know that my friend was trying to somehow comfort me, that bromide was almost as bad as saying that my little boys' dying was "God's will." While this is often said with great love, when I hear it, it feels as if I were just punched in the gut, and I silently scream, "Then God is cruel!"īut, surprisingly enough, I have come to believe that I can indeed trust God's will, even, and maybe especially, when it hurts so badly, and that I am in actuality not given anything I can't handle. That I was somehow letting God down with my inability to function, to think, to laugh, to breathe. Talk about adding insult to injury.įor example, when I was robotic all day and raging all night after burying my twin sons - and my anger at God felt as big as my level of faith was small - that platitude just made me feel worse, like my intense grief meant that I was not only a weak person, but a bad Catholic.
wrong but I really feel like there's a song with that part, I remember it vividly.During particularly challenging times in my life, some well-meaning friend will invariably tell me that "God never gives us more than we can handle."Īt those moments, that just feels like rubbing salt in my wound. I'm still not sure if I might just be remembering A.M. also comes after this chorus, or at least a similar one. Vocalization that comes after the chorus in A.M. This is a chorus type section I'm pretty sure ( another line or maybe two, I'm pretty sure at least one rhymes with soul) I can't remember the lyrics very well but something like I'm not sure if it's the Mandela affect or something but I feel like the lyrics are from a real song that I'm just mixing up with A.M. for a while and I've had it stuck in my head for the last couple of days but when I actually went to go listen to it I realized the lyrics were mainly in Spanish, and definitely didn't have the part that I've had repeating in my head. So basically what happened is I've known the song A.M. I'm trying to find this idie rock song, probably a smaller band so I'd be lucky if anyone knows it.
Wanna take our time, to feel the groove and slide Just hear the music above and find out for yourself) (This is just what I think are the lyrics so far, so some could be wrong.
YOU CAME I SAW YOU I AM ALIVE SONG FULL
I just want to know if there's actually a FULL song of this, and if so, what's the name? Because even Shazam doesn't know. If you want the happy feet version, here it is. Since this was years ago, maybe I should ask her if I don't get an answer soon, but IS there a FULL song? Or is it just in the soundtrack and she's thinking of another song? Because I feel like this song is older than the game itself I'm getting curious and I want to know the full song. She never told me the name, she just said she remembered it.
When I played one of the stages in the game, she barged into my room and told me she knew what it was. It's in the Happy Feet 2 game soundtrack. I'm trying to find a certain song my mother claims she's heard.
Well, don't you know I'm caught in a trap? When honey, you know I've never lied to you You can't see the tears are real, I'm crying Would I still see suspicion in your eyes?
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